The Biggest Mistake in 2008

Friday, April 11

I got my pretty shoe in the end! Green(: Yea man yea yea yea! Like after how many weeks, finaly! So happy(: Green green green! Just now damn noob la, ya la noob like nubcake. Went eat then go parkway buy chocolate for tomorrow(: (: (: So exciting!!! We will win! I have absolute confidence(: Tk Band is love! And so nice today(: Be nice forever la k! TK Band go go go! ❤ ~express yourself {8:38 PM}

Wa sian, why everyone not free. Want go buy the stupid shoe la. ~express yourself {10:30 AM}

Don’t ask me why, it’s a rhetorical statement. But I certainly hope that I’ve learnt from it and take whatever comes in my stride. Whatever that means. If only…

But there’s no circumstance for ‘if(s)’ because if there were, then there would be so much changes in the whole universe such that I doubt it’ll ever exist. School tomorrow and then here comes official holidays! Can’t wait.

Day

I spent my whole day bumming around and the only productvie thing that I got done today was ordering pizza for dinner successfully, because I couldn’t be bummed to go anywhere. And the best thing is, I wasn’t even the one who made that call.

This laziness is going to go on for awhile longer, adding to that would be concert tomorrow night that will spoil my entire study mood which I already lack in the very first place plus I’ve recently enrolled into some math thing that will burn away my sunday because I’ll spend the whole day dreading it.

I’m rambling on and on about not studying when I know that I should be and when I look at the time at the bottom of my computer screen, I’m shock that it’s already 8:30pm because in my warped up world, I believed that it was still sometime around noon. What’s wrong with me? Everything.

Happy Happenings

(Photo taken from Gina’s blog)

(: Floorball girls won and I’m so happy for them especially for my goodgoodgoodgoodgood friend huang bao xian! And I think you look fat in the picture, tsk! The picture captured joy and pure happiness with all the hard work they put in. Crazy people, running 2o rounds around the track, having idk how many trainings a week and how many pt sessions. I guess it all paid off, everything. And I’m so glad for bx and them! Saying they deserve it would be an understatement.

So to those with mere speech about wanting to win, look at them and how much they put in. It’s what it takes to win, words, feelings, action, and even lucky red ****?!?! Lwt ask me who and which type of people I think was cool yesterday. My answer now: them. But pls hbx, study k, don’t dream anymore. Study and EAT tgt (: See you around!

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Just a little something

Thank You

Really appreciate it, alot. It really meant alot.

Ok, maybe not that much. But still.

Blah blah blah…

There are many things that I don’t understand and I doubt I ever will. So I should live my life the way I am and blah blah blah, so boring.

Anyway, nowdays I really trying to be as nice as I can possibly be. I block out alot of mean and bad thought about people and not judge them superficially. I do it alot less than I did, it’s hard, but I think it’s working. But it means that when I’m supposedly nicer, I’ll have more possibility to be down or sad because I like reciprocation. Because when I’m not so nice I expect nothing, but I’m not that angelic to be nice and get nothing in return. I’m such a shallow person.

So I think that I should stop trying to be whatever people want me to be or think I should be. I’ll do what I think is right. But the problem now is, I don’t know what is right. Nothing seems to be.

We All Know

So get over it already.

I’ve finally gotten over the fact and how it can’t be changed. So while life suck to the deepest abyss and the tallest hill, we will still find fun in this sucky world. All the tiny moments when you laugh, when you smile, when you’re not thinking about why it suck. Life doesn’t suck then.

And how it is actually us that determine whether our lives suck. How we chose to come to a Junior College, being tricked into thinking that it’s damn easy because when people told us it was hard and draining and tiresome, we refused to believe them and thought that they were merely exagerrating. Well they are, esp those who attained good grades and said I don’t know how I survived though it. Crap, they know. Ahh wtv my thought are so disorganised now I don’t even know what I’m thinking, much less, typing.

The month has but just started,

And I’m broke. Downright broke. Just paid 60$ for TJ Prelude 29, Victoria Concert Hall ,23May 7pm.  Plus the 8 hairbands and 3 pairs of ear studs I bought just now… Oh gosh, why why why! And I’m depressed now because I’m broke. Save me~~~~~~~~~~ My MPS is very low and my MPC is very high and this is unlike the usual traits of Singapore’s economic characteristics. Boo me and why am I so lame, I don’t even think I know econs that much to be even allowed to talk about it. Ok, school tmrw at 10am, how to wake up! Sleep, gn.

Post of Redemption (on volleyball :D)

Had training today, probably going to be the last one for this sesaon. And I’m glad that I enjoyed myself whole-heartedly today. Haven’t felt this way for the longest time. I think I know why. Today’s session was light hearted, and engaging, and purely enjoyable. I didn’t care about being competent because I got past it. It’s not like if I cared about being competent, I would definitely be. It wouldn’t make a difference no matter how hard I tried.

And it’s just a pity that I had to realise it so late. But thankfully, I realised it (: And I’m super glad. That made today super fun and enjoyable, like how it’s supposed to be. And so was last training before com day. I felt that for the first time, some barriers were seemingly taken away and people could communicate more. Although we didn’t attain whatever we desired, it undeniable matters (don’t have to lie and pretend that it doesn’t matter because it genuinely does and that was what we were training for the entire time), but nevertheless, I didn’t think that it hurt as much if we weren’t able to transcend the way we did.

I’m 190% looking forward to monday. Although the holidays are going to get burned just like that, I still think it’s worthwhile. I can’t wait to eat, munch, and bite on lunch on monday. And most importantly, have the match against our last opponents, which will be interesting because it will ultimately determine (I guess) who will enter the top 4.

We had dinner tonight, something that we don’t usually do because idk why, mj vballers just like to go home after every training to rest/sleep/eat/slack/study. Take your pick. I like fries with salt. It’s unhealthy and it kills but it tastes good. Plust we’re all going to die some day. It’s not like if I eat less salt, it would decrease the chance of a random car running over me. Do you get my point? It’s abit conflated… Anyway, spotted a pasar malam and walked around just for the fun of it and took a bus ride home. Jiggedy jiggedy~ joke la, but srsly, the feeling that you get when you sit on the bus sounds like jiggedy right?! Wtv so lame.

Back to life and reality, studying at expo as always tomorrow.