The trick to life is to give a shit

I primary school, I didn’t give a shit.
In secondary school, I didn’t give a shit.
In junior college, I didn’t give a shit.
In university, I gave a shit.

I always liked school mainly because of the people and I floated by. Sometimes I cared, sometimes I didn’t. I chased results sometimes just because it seemed like the right thing to do. I knew that if I wanted to pass I could, if I wanted to excel I could. I just had to set my mind to it. But my mind wasn’t to it. So I tided through everything, quite happily I must add. You see my life is all about school. Haven’t really stepped out there. So I really liked school but didn’t love what I studied that much. Ok maybe I liked literature. But that’s it. Out of all the gazillion subjects.

Uni. Wasn’t smooth sailing at all. Especially at the start. I thought I could just float by and do decently. Lazing around, leading a bummer life, slacking. Got the biggest shock of my life when I received my first CAP. Fucking 2.9. Almost all Cs. I’ve done badly before but it was for the small tests. Depressed. Damn caught up in chasing grades. And amidst all the chaos, I found myself.

Learnt how to use my heart and mind. Found my passion. Didn’t have force myself to fight. Didn’t have to force myself to be determined. Just had to follow that voice when I clear my head and clear my heart. Guess that’s what passion is. No more blind chasing. Just giving my best in what I loved. So from then on, kinda easy peasy. I just had to give me best, cos, even if it isn’t enough, it is all I had. It was simple and nice.

Life can throw lemons. I will just drink it all up cos I can take it. I might even learn to love it.