I think I overcompensate for my lack of energy by appearing to be too energetic. Truth is, I’m tired and overwhelmed. My exterior self doesn’t correspond with my internal one. But if I don’t put up such a front, I know I will just crumble and break apart. So I’m only doing this to ensure that I stay alive. Even if it gets tiring sometimes. And I think that it makes people happy, when you make yourself seem less like an intellect. Plus if I don’t smile I look like I’ll eat someone up. So it’s just what I have to do, if I care.
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